Сергей Есенин, EVREEXX, Vibe Poems - I m tired of this, I've never been this tired before

Many women have loved me
And I myself have loved more than one
Isn’t that why the dark F
Has accustomed me to whine?
Endless drunken night
And in reality not the first time
Melancholy
Isn’t that why my eyes are not
Like a worm through blue leaves
In the rain?
I dreamed of the rise
In the sky
And my way with life
No one’s betrayal pays me
And the victories don’t bring me joy
The golden hail of that hair
Turns to gray
Turns to ash and water
When the autumn turns
I don’t feel the years gone by
I don’t want anything back
I’ll never be so tired
In this great frosting
I’ve seen the rise
In the sky
And my wayward life
I’m tired of torturing myself aimlessly
And with a strange smile on my face
I’ve come to love carrying in my light
Body
The quiet light
And peace of the dead
And now it’s not even hard to hobble
From then to now
Like your straight jacket
We encase nature in concrete
Hell and me
By the same law
The planet